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When I’m in Benares, in Kashi there is a huge graveyard, several kilometers. Simply I want to walk there, that’s my desire. Generally they won’t allow you unless you are related to somebody’s Samadhi. Somebody is your grandparents, their grandparents... Luckily I said one name, it is there in the register, “Go!” Then simply I walk. I stepped in 9 am. keep walking. Some souls is still stuck there in the Samadhi, and I keep walking. It’s a beautiful graveyard, walking and just still vibrating. I opened all my channels, simply walking. It’s like a big scanner going, like a big metal detector is going, scanning, it’s vibrating, seen, why, why, why it got stuck? Keep going, just stuck, stuck, stuck, stuck, stuck, stuck, stuck, stuck... moment happening. Once the soul got stuck, it means that soul, how to release that, is only who has the strong power-spot, they can make, think on their powers-pot, send the energy to make it lift out. If you have the power-spot, in case you got car accident, you died in it – you can’t turn as a negative spirit - no chance. Somebody killed you - you cannot turn as a negative spirit. Generally there is a strong belief system, somebody killed, and somebody murdered, and whatever done to you and you died horribly, and you turned as a negative spirit. Isn’t it? Hello!
Students: Yes!
Swami: It means Jesus they tried maximum best to crucify him. It means he has to turn as a negative spirit? The powers-pot has that much power. You can help any negative spirit who really got stuck, thinking on your power-spot, just think your power-spot, where it is, “Oh, Penukonda in Dwarkamai I have my power-spot, let this soul release out!”
Whoever is responsible that power-spot for you, somebody is, guardian angel is there to protecting you. A part of your soul energy already you buried it. Voluntarily you accepted it and you buried it. Your soul still having in you, apart of soul is having in the earth element.
Somebody they burn it, some bodies... even though they have the powers-pot, they buried it. In the worst case they turn as a negative spirit. In the worst case they turn as a negative spirit. You didn’t see any samadhi there, it’s already burned, it’s ash; it’s over. When you, wherever it is the burned, that place, in that area keep moving the spirits.
If you go to the Kumbhamela, the saints there, it’s a kind of little quite interesting.
When I’m in the Nepal, the temple is there Pushpanath. In your life you have to see it. Of course on the days they put one standard law in North India, “You cannot enter any temple the Westerners, especially the Shiva Temple.” They won’t allow you guys. In Kasi inside, no they won’t allow you. In Nepal, Shiva Temple, if they see you as a westerner white skin, no, out. They won’t allow you. There is a lot of stories on it.
When you go inside Pushpadnath Temple... before you going inside, there is a huge river where all the ghats are. Ghats means where all the dead bodies are burning spot. The people, all the Nepal who died in the country, the majority wealthy people, they’re bringing the dead bodies there. They’re burning it there. They’re taking that ash, they’re taking the pot, they’re going into the Shiva Temple, they’re pouring on Shiva, and doing pranams. They shave their head, they’re going out.
When I saw like this, how far the dead bodies keep burning it— keep burning, like kilometers, smell, dead bodies are like standing up and they’re putting them down on the fire. You know what I’m saying? It’s a kind of really vairagya - vairagya means disgusting. It means one day you have to go through like that too. When you keep seeing it... who is in the mortuary, if you’re working in the mortuary for ten years... I hope you won’t... you lost something isn’t it? Hello?
To go in the vairagya, final vairagya, the Mother of the illusion cannot touch you any more. Cannot? Touch you anymore. Jesus Christ is in vairagya. Shirdi Baba he’s in vairagya, “I don’t want anything. Have some small food, eat, sleep in the street, let’s lead.” He doesn’t care to take shower, he doesn’t care about shaving his head, he doesn’t care about himself. He doesn’t have any desires - pure vairagya - unconditional love and unbelievable brilliant, unbelievable knowledgeable person, unbelievable powerful person. He knows the signs, he knows the spirituality, he’s the doctor, he’s ayurvedic doctor, he’s a powerful man but he looked like a psychiatric patient. He’s screaming on himself. He’s screaming on the sky and he’s screaming on the bushes and he’s shouting on himself and he’s shouting on everybody. And just he’s talking rubbish, and just throwing the rocks on the people, beating with the stick. If anybody had five hundred rupees in the pocket and they come for his blessing, “Give the five hundred rupees.” “What? Why you need five hundred rupees?” “You want some help isn’t it? Give five hundred rupees then we’ll talk.”
Somebody wants to give a thousand rupees, “Can you help me?” He said, “No, I don’t want your money.” “Give your five hundred.” It’s all psychiatric behavior. I’m sorry; it’s a fact. (Swami points to Baba) It’s totally fact. I don’t care what he gives the punishment but it’s not a criticism, it’s a compliment. It’s a compliment. But why?
When I’m in the Kumbhamela, same type of characters like tons of people, hundreds, thousands of people. They’re not ordinary characters. Huge personalities and eyes and physics, and they’re taking one strong, like soma it’s called, just drinking it and eating it. Just I’m watching on them. Whatever is on my mind, they’re saying it to me. “You don’t need to be confused. Stop your monkey mind.” Any language they’ll talk.
When I’m in the place, in the Pashpatanath Temple, inside, one saint, he’s very aggressive and very funny. The nails are grown (Swami shows very long nails, like 20 cm) and just it’s interesting, very interesting. It’s my journey there. I want to see whole globe, including Manasarovar. My journey is, just what’s really there, what is this samadhis, what is this palm leaves, what is this power objects. I’m kind of little frustrated. Of course later on recognized what I am, what is my mission. Until then, I want to know more, more, more, more, let’s go the more. As much as, the more I want to go.
Finally I went to Pashpatanath Temple. Inside that guy so weird, I sat very... it’s a huge temple. The backside there’s a big tree. I don’t know what tree that is, a kind of a neem tree. There’s a lot of Shiva Lingams. You have walk, if you walk around the Shiva Lingams you got enlightenment. I don’t know what is that. They put that, organized all the Shiva Lingams. I walked there and I sat. Tons of monkeys are there, tons of monkeys. I’m looking on the monkeys... Already I saw all the aghoras, avadhuts, all the stuff. While I looked at one strong huge monkey there, all the lady monkey’s there he’s dominating, the strong male monkey. Then one guy he came with beard. He looked at my face. I thought these monkeys are much better than these guys. Serious, I swear to God, this monkey is much better than these guys. I better to stop spirituality - forget it, go as a normal businessman in the planet.
Go as a businessman in the globe and lead my life very happily. Totally confused. I have my small bag, two dresses, one towel, little soap, brush, paste. That’s it, few rupees in my pocket. That is my journey. That is my journey. Then he came, “You compare me as a monkey?”
“What?”
“You’re thinking we’re all kind of monkeys like that?” And he is showing that monkey. “I didn’t think that.” In my mind just I thought, “Don’t say you didn’t thought that; I know it. How he’s reading my mind?”
Again he’s saying in my Telugu language, “I know what you’re thinking. Go back to your Penukonda. The story will start. It’s already fixed. We need to switch on. Just go back, it will play.” Today it’s the first time that I’m opening this chapter. So, then I got, “Well I didn’t get satisfied, I know these type of characters, they’re psychic readers. Some of these characters I’ve seen already, okay fine, maybe this type of characters...okay, fine. What is in Manasarovar, all this stuff, more depth?” Then you know the story of my Manasarovar; then I get back.
Finally I came to one conclusion, I went to Shirdi. I’m in Dwarkamai. It’s almost ten, twelve years back. I think almost twelve years back, many people I brought you to Shirdi guys. It’s very normal. Dwarkamai is simple with iron sheets, naturally anytime you can go, very free, the marbles, the doors is very open. To the samadhi you can go many times. Now, today we have lot of gold, silver, diamonds and whatever it is he’s having it. On the days it is very normal Samadhi, and normal simple.
And I went there and sat in front of his samadhi looking at him. “You’re also avadhut. What’s really going on? What’s really going on? Where’s it going finally? What is the destiny? That is my question. What is my mission? What I really have to do? What is my destiny?”
No answer. I put my sankalpam there. Everyday 5 o’clock a.m. I go there, clean the Dwarkamai, sweep it, and there’s a free food counter. Go and eat in the free food counter. Come back. There’s a big hall everybody can sleep freely, shower, my clothes are there, I am doing my seva, keep doing my seva.
Then one final early morning, a message, “Just it’s remote. You see your dharma, what I need to go to do? You see.” Once the story started, just click. It’s a kind of one minute spinning, then stand there, spin, then stayed. (Swami shows pictures in front of his eyes spinning, then stopping)
From that day onwards I don’t really know what’s really happening until now. I went to America, all countries, and I cancelled tons of times America. I lost tons of books. He brought lot of information to me. They threw the bombs in the ashram and attacked in my farmhouse. Lot of things happened. Lot of things - simply smiling, “Okay, what is the next thing you’re going to do? Okay, what is the next thing you’re going to do?”
I particularly, clearly many times I decided somebody will come and take care of the Divine Mission. Why I should take care? If it’s a Divine Mission the Divine will take care, why I have to take care? Why I have to bother on it? Why I need to unnecessarily suffer? Just I go in Jiva Samadhi.
The point is, once we surrender to him, he will decide. He? Decides. Today you came here, “Swami, I want to connect Jesus Christ. I want to connect Mother Divine. I want to have the purifications. I want to have the Divine Channels. I want to have the healing techniques. You promised me here. You promised me this. You promised me this.” It’s not me. It’s not? Me.
Students: Yes!
Swami: It means Jesus they tried maximum best to crucify him. It means he has to turn as a negative spirit? The powers-pot has that much power. You can help any negative spirit who really got stuck, thinking on your power-spot, just think your power-spot, where it is, “Oh, Penukonda in Dwarkamai I have my power-spot, let this soul release out!”
Whoever is responsible that power-spot for you, somebody is, guardian angel is there to protecting you. A part of your soul energy already you buried it. Voluntarily you accepted it and you buried it. Your soul still having in you, apart of soul is having in the earth element.
Somebody they burn it, some bodies... even though they have the powers-pot, they buried it. In the worst case they turn as a negative spirit. In the worst case they turn as a negative spirit. You didn’t see any samadhi there, it’s already burned, it’s ash; it’s over. When you, wherever it is the burned, that place, in that area keep moving the spirits.
If you go to the Kumbhamela, the saints there, it’s a kind of little quite interesting.
When I’m in the Nepal, the temple is there Pushpanath. In your life you have to see it. Of course on the days they put one standard law in North India, “You cannot enter any temple the Westerners, especially the Shiva Temple.” They won’t allow you guys. In Kasi inside, no they won’t allow you. In Nepal, Shiva Temple, if they see you as a westerner white skin, no, out. They won’t allow you. There is a lot of stories on it.
When you go inside Pushpadnath Temple... before you going inside, there is a huge river where all the ghats are. Ghats means where all the dead bodies are burning spot. The people, all the Nepal who died in the country, the majority wealthy people, they’re bringing the dead bodies there. They’re burning it there. They’re taking that ash, they’re taking the pot, they’re going into the Shiva Temple, they’re pouring on Shiva, and doing pranams. They shave their head, they’re going out.
When I saw like this, how far the dead bodies keep burning it— keep burning, like kilometers, smell, dead bodies are like standing up and they’re putting them down on the fire. You know what I’m saying? It’s a kind of really vairagya - vairagya means disgusting. It means one day you have to go through like that too. When you keep seeing it... who is in the mortuary, if you’re working in the mortuary for ten years... I hope you won’t... you lost something isn’t it? Hello?
To go in the vairagya, final vairagya, the Mother of the illusion cannot touch you any more. Cannot? Touch you anymore. Jesus Christ is in vairagya. Shirdi Baba he’s in vairagya, “I don’t want anything. Have some small food, eat, sleep in the street, let’s lead.” He doesn’t care to take shower, he doesn’t care about shaving his head, he doesn’t care about himself. He doesn’t have any desires - pure vairagya - unconditional love and unbelievable brilliant, unbelievable knowledgeable person, unbelievable powerful person. He knows the signs, he knows the spirituality, he’s the doctor, he’s ayurvedic doctor, he’s a powerful man but he looked like a psychiatric patient. He’s screaming on himself. He’s screaming on the sky and he’s screaming on the bushes and he’s shouting on himself and he’s shouting on everybody. And just he’s talking rubbish, and just throwing the rocks on the people, beating with the stick. If anybody had five hundred rupees in the pocket and they come for his blessing, “Give the five hundred rupees.” “What? Why you need five hundred rupees?” “You want some help isn’t it? Give five hundred rupees then we’ll talk.”
Somebody wants to give a thousand rupees, “Can you help me?” He said, “No, I don’t want your money.” “Give your five hundred.” It’s all psychiatric behavior. I’m sorry; it’s a fact. (Swami points to Baba) It’s totally fact. I don’t care what he gives the punishment but it’s not a criticism, it’s a compliment. It’s a compliment. But why?
When I’m in the Kumbhamela, same type of characters like tons of people, hundreds, thousands of people. They’re not ordinary characters. Huge personalities and eyes and physics, and they’re taking one strong, like soma it’s called, just drinking it and eating it. Just I’m watching on them. Whatever is on my mind, they’re saying it to me. “You don’t need to be confused. Stop your monkey mind.” Any language they’ll talk.
When I’m in the place, in the Pashpatanath Temple, inside, one saint, he’s very aggressive and very funny. The nails are grown (Swami shows very long nails, like 20 cm) and just it’s interesting, very interesting. It’s my journey there. I want to see whole globe, including Manasarovar. My journey is, just what’s really there, what is this samadhis, what is this palm leaves, what is this power objects. I’m kind of little frustrated. Of course later on recognized what I am, what is my mission. Until then, I want to know more, more, more, more, let’s go the more. As much as, the more I want to go.
Finally I went to Pashpatanath Temple. Inside that guy so weird, I sat very... it’s a huge temple. The backside there’s a big tree. I don’t know what tree that is, a kind of a neem tree. There’s a lot of Shiva Lingams. You have walk, if you walk around the Shiva Lingams you got enlightenment. I don’t know what is that. They put that, organized all the Shiva Lingams. I walked there and I sat. Tons of monkeys are there, tons of monkeys. I’m looking on the monkeys... Already I saw all the aghoras, avadhuts, all the stuff. While I looked at one strong huge monkey there, all the lady monkey’s there he’s dominating, the strong male monkey. Then one guy he came with beard. He looked at my face. I thought these monkeys are much better than these guys. Serious, I swear to God, this monkey is much better than these guys. I better to stop spirituality - forget it, go as a normal businessman in the planet.
Go as a businessman in the globe and lead my life very happily. Totally confused. I have my small bag, two dresses, one towel, little soap, brush, paste. That’s it, few rupees in my pocket. That is my journey. That is my journey. Then he came, “You compare me as a monkey?”
“What?”
“You’re thinking we’re all kind of monkeys like that?” And he is showing that monkey. “I didn’t think that.” In my mind just I thought, “Don’t say you didn’t thought that; I know it. How he’s reading my mind?”
Again he’s saying in my Telugu language, “I know what you’re thinking. Go back to your Penukonda. The story will start. It’s already fixed. We need to switch on. Just go back, it will play.” Today it’s the first time that I’m opening this chapter. So, then I got, “Well I didn’t get satisfied, I know these type of characters, they’re psychic readers. Some of these characters I’ve seen already, okay fine, maybe this type of characters...okay, fine. What is in Manasarovar, all this stuff, more depth?” Then you know the story of my Manasarovar; then I get back.
Finally I came to one conclusion, I went to Shirdi. I’m in Dwarkamai. It’s almost ten, twelve years back. I think almost twelve years back, many people I brought you to Shirdi guys. It’s very normal. Dwarkamai is simple with iron sheets, naturally anytime you can go, very free, the marbles, the doors is very open. To the samadhi you can go many times. Now, today we have lot of gold, silver, diamonds and whatever it is he’s having it. On the days it is very normal Samadhi, and normal simple.
And I went there and sat in front of his samadhi looking at him. “You’re also avadhut. What’s really going on? What’s really going on? Where’s it going finally? What is the destiny? That is my question. What is my mission? What I really have to do? What is my destiny?”
No answer. I put my sankalpam there. Everyday 5 o’clock a.m. I go there, clean the Dwarkamai, sweep it, and there’s a free food counter. Go and eat in the free food counter. Come back. There’s a big hall everybody can sleep freely, shower, my clothes are there, I am doing my seva, keep doing my seva.
Then one final early morning, a message, “Just it’s remote. You see your dharma, what I need to go to do? You see.” Once the story started, just click. It’s a kind of one minute spinning, then stand there, spin, then stayed. (Swami shows pictures in front of his eyes spinning, then stopping)
From that day onwards I don’t really know what’s really happening until now. I went to America, all countries, and I cancelled tons of times America. I lost tons of books. He brought lot of information to me. They threw the bombs in the ashram and attacked in my farmhouse. Lot of things happened. Lot of things - simply smiling, “Okay, what is the next thing you’re going to do? Okay, what is the next thing you’re going to do?”
I particularly, clearly many times I decided somebody will come and take care of the Divine Mission. Why I should take care? If it’s a Divine Mission the Divine will take care, why I have to take care? Why I have to bother on it? Why I need to unnecessarily suffer? Just I go in Jiva Samadhi.
The point is, once we surrender to him, he will decide. He? Decides. Today you came here, “Swami, I want to connect Jesus Christ. I want to connect Mother Divine. I want to have the purifications. I want to have the Divine Channels. I want to have the healing techniques. You promised me here. You promised me this. You promised me this.” It’s not me. It’s not? Me.
